That's not an easy thing to say. It filled me with so much sadness and shame at the time. Made me feel like I failed her from her first seconds of life here on earth. Mom guilt right from the start. When they handed her to me I felt love, but I didn't feel the [...]
Tag: grief
Grieving Amid Joy
These are the last pictures I have with my mom. We went to Florida to visit her that April. I did not want to go on this trip. My husband kept pushing for us to go, but I had this feeling in the pit of my stomach something bad was going to happen. Anyone who [...]
Her Name Was Judy
September 11, 2012, the day my life would change....again. On September 10th I was on the west coast for vacation. Driving down the coast of California, hiking, taking in the sites, going off the grid. I was staying at some off the beat hotel and my mom called me. "Hey honey, first of all I [...]